4 - If I could do it over again

      I had this relationship back then but I was already in college. This relationship ended and didn't end well. It wasn't able to be brought to the next level and it was all because of me, if I was only given another chance and to do it over again but in a right and meaningful way.

      In this story, I was the bad one because I was actually the one who started it somehow. I was the one who went to her and tried to have a relationship. But unfortunately I ended it but with so much regrets. I’m not so sure why I ended it but maybe because I became scared especially when she said that she’s already falling in love with me. When I knew about it, I felt really happy of course because I also had the same feelings with her. But I don’t really know why I felt scared. I guess I was not that ready yet. I really felt sorry for her because I just left her hanging which was a very stupid thing to do. I should have given some effort to her, and I could went with her all the time, and not just saying a “Hi” then say bye all the time. I knew that she really loved hugging people especially the person she’s in love with. I wish I have given her so much hugs every time we see each other. But everything’s too late now, now that’s already over and she doesn't want to give me another chance.

      With that relationship, I shouldn't have given it up because until now I still have feelings for her and I actually don’t know how to remove it because it really hurts, if I was just given another chance, to do It over again but this time with full of love and care.